Bloodstream – Stateless

“Wake up, look me in the eyes again
I need to feel your hand upon my face
Words can be like knives,
They can cut you open.
And the silence surrounds you
and haunts you.”

A psychic told me at Hallowe’en that the person I was with wasn’t the person for me. I already knew he was wrong for me, but kept trying to see if I could find that spark since everyone around me thought he was perfect. After she told me that she said that there was someone for me, someone I already knew but had never really seen. Someone who knew I wasn’t ready for him, but who was waiting for me.

I don’t hold much stock in psychics, I think they speak very generally and we interrupt what they say as it applies to our own life. It’s not that they don;t give good advice, they do, if you are introspective enough to interrupt what they say in a way that makes you change your life. In this instance I was confused, there were so many people who could have been the one she talked about. I briefly thought it might be the Irish boy whom I still thought of often, but at the same time knew that it was an impossibility.

“The spaces in between
Two minds and all the places they have been
The spaces in between
I tried to put my finger on it.”

It wasn’t until about a month ago that I finally saw the person she claimed I didn’t see. She was right though, I had never seen him truly. Now it seems everyone I meet doesn’t stack up to the promise I see with him. Too bad he doesn’t live in the same city as I do.

I met him almost two years ago today. He was the friend of someone I was involved with, briefly visiting during my birthday and went out to supper with me and his friend. I had been chatting with him on Facebook before his trip here and already knew we had much in common. I flirted with him throughout the night when his friend, who is another entry in this blog, was a douche.

For some reason we’ve kept in touch ever since. We exchange favourite songs, banter about philosophy and the news of the day, and genuinely just talk about anything. I even jokingly made him a PoF profile and tried to find him a date. Now I find myself in the position of being a month away from going to his home for a work conference. He has invited me dozens of times to visit him, and now I finally will be. Not only that but I am staying the weekend, in his spare room.

“I think I might’ve inhaled you
I could feel you behind my eyes
You’ve gotten into my bloodstream
I could feel you floating in me”

I swore long ago that I would never find myself in a long distance relationship. Especially if it was long distance from the start, but something about him, about how easy it is to talk to him, to see myself with him, keeps pulling me back in. I guess we’ll see if we want the same things, and then, maybe I’ll prove myself wrong.

Bloodstream came to my attention because it was played on the season finale of a TV show that is my guilty pleasure, The Vampire Diaries. Stateless is a UK electronica band that was formed in 2003 by singer/songwriter Chris James. Still building a following here in North America, they currently have two albums “Stateless” and “Matilda” which will be released this February.

Bloodstream is from their first album and was a single originally released in the UK in October of 2007. Before being featured in Vampire Diaries, it was also used in an episode of CSI: Miami.

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